Knowen when to quit.
Posted: Sat Aug 15, 2020 1:44 pm
I’ve used marijuana for years daily. I used it to eat, I used it to sleep, I used it in a house I used it with a mouse.
But enough it’s enough - it’s been so long since I’ve experienced reality. I’m tired of the anxiety it induces when I’m coming down, I’m tired of the smell, the taste, the nasty resin it leaves in my lungs. I’m tired of the emotional roller coaster it induces and I’m tired of pretending it doesn’t.
Most of all I’m ready to experience feelings again. I’ve neglected so many people in my life because of weed. I’ve always put getting high before anything or anyone else. Weed allows me to escape into my own little world - basically a childish safe space. I ignore everything including the people who love me most.
it’s only been a couple of days but my head already feels clearer. It’s tempting to smoke and escape the fears and insecurities I’ve been muting for so long but I know that it would only set me back and depress me.
I know some people can casually and responsibility consume marijuana but I am not one of those people - I always take it to the extreme.
I’ve been so fortunate to have friends and family and loved ones care so deeply for me. I will not ignore them any longer because they don’t deserve that kind of treatment.
But enough it’s enough - it’s been so long since I’ve experienced reality. I’m tired of the anxiety it induces when I’m coming down, I’m tired of the smell, the taste, the nasty resin it leaves in my lungs. I’m tired of the emotional roller coaster it induces and I’m tired of pretending it doesn’t.
Most of all I’m ready to experience feelings again. I’ve neglected so many people in my life because of weed. I’ve always put getting high before anything or anyone else. Weed allows me to escape into my own little world - basically a childish safe space. I ignore everything including the people who love me most.
it’s only been a couple of days but my head already feels clearer. It’s tempting to smoke and escape the fears and insecurities I’ve been muting for so long but I know that it would only set me back and depress me.
I know some people can casually and responsibility consume marijuana but I am not one of those people - I always take it to the extreme.
I’ve been so fortunate to have friends and family and loved ones care so deeply for me. I will not ignore them any longer because they don’t deserve that kind of treatment.